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I think has something to do with her being bored with her life, and she’s at a point where she might feel loney or is craving some type of attention, so she streams, gets lots of attention, but then realizes the type of people that watch her stream and tries to stop streaming, but she’s addicted and goes back to feeling loney/bored or craving some type of attention so she streams again because she has nothing better to do.

TLDR: She knows she shouldn’t stream to this audience but she’s addicted to it, and is probably struggling to fully stop and leave this part of her life behind because she might not have much of a life outside of this.