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im not saying all men are bad but i cant trust all men because of the majorly insensitive and unempathetic popularity, and in that popularity there remains those who can be outright dangerous so it is both expected of me to act kind and oblige but to protect myself
i have to not wear revealing clothing, even though they still rape kids in their school uniform, their joggers, babies that were never clothed for the first time in their life even.
i shouldnt be out late at night, because if i do, i am asking for it. i can not be simply going on a night walk or a run to the shop or return from work while feeling safe

dont think i feel safe at other times...

i am scared in a class, if a male looks at me the wrong way, maybe they think because i dont speak much and am shy, they think i wont tell anyone if he touches me, gropes me, forces himself on me,
kills me...

and whos to say a man that acts kind the first time you meet isn't going to betray you, take advantage of you?

i personally know people who have married "wonderful" guys (shoutout tex beneke) and got assaulted later in their marriage.
my mother even got cheated on by the guy he first got engaged to, when she was young.
by the way, if you do engage with a person that reveals they are bad after, you will get shunned for it. like i said, the situation with my mother. this does not get speaken of ever. i just know it because i read the letters my mom and dad exchanged because he was working out of the country after they met, which was technically arranged! both my grandmas met at a "party" of sorts, its more casual like just a planned visit with many people. and they became friends, talked about how they had single children, they were close in age; they should meet!
well, i am very lucky because they are completely in love with each other. of course my father has his quirks like getting angry more easily and he has a hard time saying sorry but they got over it, together.
together as in they allowed each other to be vulnerable with one another, they did chores together so it would be easier on both of them, when they were both working.
i really like their love. thats why i want to fall in love, love romantic literature, music, paintings, the romantic era, and just... romantic gestures, also in the sense people call dramatic as in romantic like the era: feeling over the top.
i feel things at a 1 or 0 binary situation. when i am happy i am very happy and when i am not i am not. ofc sometimes i am sad but when nothing is extremely "happy" i do not go "wow happy ! " its just "ok" or "nice" most of the time. i think this is because of my autism bc i told this to a psychologist and they told me its cause 1 i cant pinpoint feelings and 2 i feel emotions deeply

uhh the point i was getting at is since i know my dad, which has loved me purely like he loved my mother. like ofc my mom loved me a lot too but im saying my dad raised my standards in men.
im goingg to preface this by saying like i love my dad purely as a parent i dont have reverse daddy issues cause i know you guys make of things incredibly strangely

yes so um please if u are a male personal development is not gay feelings are not gay if u acrually lack empathy do acid or shrooms a few times until u get it
hell even read feminist lit while ur tripping.

i hope i am understood even though it is just in a comprehensible manner if u cant understand the situation and how i feel about it