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I tried to quite drinking cold turkey many times throughout the years. I'm going to admit this: I was one unhappy fucking asshole when trying to quite. I could not enjoy my life. People would not enjoy being around me during those times. I had problems with my marriage because of it. The whole nine yards. Then it hit me: alcoholism really is not a curable disease like so many claim. Even after all the hellish withdrawals (mental and physical), once you get hooked, you never ever stop craving the booze. Never. Your mind is re-wired to consume it, forever, and the craving will last decades if not for the rest of your life. And that makes life fucking miserable to have constant craving that never goes away. So I decided "enough is enough" and accepted who I really am: I'm an alcoholic, I always will be. Now I have to accept responsibility for it. I have to set limits, I have to calendar my drinking to every other night, with rations. Sometimes only a quarter a bottle, sometimes I'll drink a half a bottle in one night. Never over half a bottle is my limit. It's hard, but I have to be a responsible alcoholic as long as I have family around.