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> I think all of it is an illusion
It is but there are "mechanics" of the illusions and they need to be understood so the saying 
> it's all a dream
Is as true as it's false.
Not to mention I had a fear some years ago because "whenever I start to enjoy the dream too much I always wake up" and made me fear that I would just "awake" to an another ugly world when I wake up "from this". Had to realize how wrong I was and what "awakening means" on the long run.
> have to witness ugliness
In the dao there is the saying
> when beauty is perceived ugliness arise
I too had a part on the path when an energy channel appeared like a plant connecting to my 3rd eye. I was looking at the plant and I said 
> this plant is ugly
Was thinking... what made me even consider that it's "ugly". It fulfills a purpose it loads my 3rd eye with energy. I asked my guide about it. She told me 
> you are getting touch with beauty and now you are able to see within it yourself. Look at the plant more deeply see it's ugliness and see how it should "bloom into beauty" with that the correct form will arise
Also beautiful flowers bloom from the earth with a healthy dose of cow manure and worms. The relation between  THE ALL connecting to itself needs to be understood.
> you need to be hardened by the earth experience first
It's a funny thing. Even in kabbalah only Malkuth/Earth has the 4 elements. The other realms have "different elements". As funny it sounds... these elements can give us power over other realms when they come "here" (so can their elements have power over us when we interact with them). There are things only earth has.
> you will not know what to focus on and how it is
Yeah. Not to mention after having otherworldly experiences you only notice what "treasures" earth have. Sometimes you have to lose something to understand it's importance.
> as long as it's my personal heaven
You are starting to understand the "comfy vampires" :^)

> Well yeah it was just meant to be a metaphor
Yeah I know and I will elaborate now because there are some "funny differences". The "breakthroughs". First it feels it is a "hard shell" but then you will realize the "shell" is "alive". It's "soft warm and pulsates". There were times when my energy channels opened and it felt like "I am giving birth to a mental block in my brain" because it was not something I could "break" anymore. Srsly the "flesh and blood" can be real complicated. There is a reason why the "majestic spiritual body" is able to "connect to it". Deus ex machina. What kind of machine can contain god? It needs to be a real good machine or god wouldn't dwell in it don't you think?
> after you start waking up and realizing your true self.
I too thought this way. Then had to realize my "real self" is so OP that my body dies if I force my full power into it. And I am in my body still. It's a good body. Has long limbs and such. Would be a waste discard it too early especially because I didn't even unlock third of it's features.
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Oyasumi