>>/133029/ (2/2) Then you have the orbiters who don’t know her at all. It’s kind of like how in the pre internet era if you felt turned on at the sight of a toaster once you’d move on and not think about it much, but now you can google it and come across entire communities about wanting to fuck toasters and the communal discourse brings you a false sense of fulfillment while reinforcing the desire to fuck toasters and it becomes an obsession. Normally someone would have come across her, had a few thoughts about her, maybe had some daydreams. But for someone attracted to her to find a community dedicated to obsessing over her is like a dynamite stick to the orbitofrontal cortex with all the above conditions applying on top of that. 

Why Kennedi in particular generates so much noise from people I still don’t understand. I’ve never known someone who receives so much attention against their will, physically and psychically. She maxed out on good and bad luck at birth in opposite directions. 

I can assume that some of her old and current friends still check in here for the same reasons that I do. Some of it is boredom, some of it is paranoia (look at how many people here start posting as soon as they’re mentioned), some of it is nostalgia, some of it is envy, some of it is unresolved conflict, some of it is misguided curiosity about how she’s doing. The weirdest part is that everyone who has actually known her has nothing but nice things to say about her with the worst being that she can be naive. I think a lot of people can’t believe that she’s as naive as she is so they think it’s an act. And even if real, there is a sick satisfaction that comes with knowing you might be able to put an end to that naivety without retaliation. Either way the goal is to be a sleeper agent dragging someone down into Hell.

I had more written but deleted it because every time I come here I feel a part of my soul die. I am a hypocrite.