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> everything she's dealing with that made her face look vacant came while she was in a healthy monogamous relationship that made her happy.

imagine thinking you know her thoughts and motivations for everything. can you maybe entertain the possibility that she WASNT happy and thats why she left you for neutral? perhaps you do mean well, but really, maybe its you who DROVE her to look like an empty husk? drained her energy with your incessant demands and controlling nature? no, you dont like looking in the mirror and seeing a monster, do you? of course not. much more convenient to see us as villains and yourself as the "hero". we all like to think we are good ppl doing whats best for her, but isnt it possible that youre as much a monster as anyone? controlling her the way you do , justifying it by saying its for her 'own good' and because you love her. 

get one thing clear: You dont love her. you love the IDEA of being the savior to a hot vulnerable mentally ill girl .  i would argue that what you do isnt for ki at all, its just to satisfy your own overblown ego. 

in closing i think you should consider the possibility that you cant ever save her,no matter what you think,  because you are an integral part of the problem yourself, keeping her in this fucked up cycle.

sorry i know that was a long, rambling post. i guess i had a lot on my mind that needed to come out.