> be me, college student
> no friends, hate my work, hate my industry, hate the country, hate being an incel. Decide to drop out
> losing my mind so in a moment of desperation I try to make friends on r9k
> end up meeting girl and we hit it off
> she ends up asking me out
> first time I ever had a gf so I don't know how to handle it
> she e-cheats on me by looking for findom simps on soc
> I confront her and she gaslights me saying I did something wrong by noticing her posts
> we make up and make plans for future
> I want to meet up
> she ghosts me a week before Christmas
> look into her further and find out she is a semi-notorious e-girl
> many people I talk to claim to have known her and had similar experiences
> foolishly get back in contact with her
> she claims to be dating some guy irl now
> I behave pathetically and irrationally
> one day she ghosts me after we get in an argument over nonsense
> keep my composure and don't get back in contact
> keep tabs on her to see what she is up to
> she becomes full blown cyber whore and even has her nudes leak
> I remain comfy neet
Idk. I feel bad about everything that happened but I never had any control. I just wish I wasn't such a creep and could forget about her.