>>/143655/
tbh I saw someone talking about self hate and narcissism parallels, I looked into it and I think thats the case for me. Self hatred in itself is pretty narcissistic too. I think it's called cover narcissism? 
 >>/143658/
yeah... I am very gullible :v how does it tie to the narcissism though? like im not conceited, I hate my actions, and I understand the criticism for it but sometimes I am right, like people just say weird stuff I don't agree with, so I speak about it. I want to learn more about what people think of me (is this narcissistic too?) because I want to do better than I did previously. like I just want to improve. thats why when someone calls me a whore I talk about how I started doing this just for attention, validation and saw it as an easy way to find friends. and on top of it, I dont expect money from anyone unless they want to give me. thats why I am not a whore in the classic sense, as in I dont sell my body for penetration and stuff, I am playing into a fantasy that both anons and I have.