after a lot of time with myself and not coming here ive decided that coming clean here is a good idea as i owe you guys the truth.
cewl was an identity i created to not think about myself as myself but as a better person, hence i omitted most details about myself. i was born in turkey and my first language is turkish. my family is from balkan heritage and so, but the reason i told i was serbian to you all was for privacy reasons along with me creating a whole separate identity so that i didnt feel like my own self.
there are other false information about cewl along with this, but i dont think it really matters now since i am no longer active here.
the person i mentioned as being brazilian (delastelle) i found out that he has used a brazilian burner phone number possibly bought from the internet, so now i believe he is actually serbian like he told me before.
i am sorry everyone, have a good rest of your life. 
godspeed.