You messaged me daily for months, sending me pics all the time, most of them old photos it turns out, but why? What was the fucking point? I didnt ask you to do that. You got me to stop taking my meds, said you were proud of me for it, read my birth chart and made it sound like we were destined to do cool shit together... then ghost me around new years. i didnt ask for any of this. What the fuck did I ever do to deserve any of this?

You reached out to me cus you went to that fucking comedy show... cus you wouldnt get over sam hyde...

cus you saw me talking mad shit about him and you wanted to use that...

i'm the furthest thing from perfect. i was always up front about my fucking issues... you still decided to fuck with my head... that part is all on you.

i never did that to you. i only ever tried to be a good friend. maybe i failed at that, but i tried. so then you run away to europe and im left in the wake with nothing but these fucked up emotions that i didnt fucking ask for and that i've tried really fucking hard to forget.

so why do you deserve a happily ever after but not me?

just because you're the fucking woman? Men are so fucking easy to manipulate, arent we?

All you gotta do is pretend you care about us even just a little and we'll do anything you want...

cus thats all we want, someone who fucking cares.

so yeah you pretended to be the one thing i've always needed... someone who cares... and then you ripped that away... and theres been a hole ever since that i cant fucking fill with anything because theres nothing that can fill it besides someone that cares.

so im caught in a catch-22... i try to forgive and move on... but that hole never goes away... so then i resent you... and then i make things worse for myself and you... what the fuck is this shit its not right...