>>/161139/
Well, my life is already a trainwreck, I am a NEET with zero family except my grandmother whom I live with, and no friends, not even online, I dont even know if I can form connections anymore with people, I already accepted this life a while ago, but I guess the obsession makes it feel better? I can tell its destroying me, but it feels euphoric, if that makes sense, i know if i do nothing about it that it will eventually lead to something bad, and I dont know how to feel about that, I've already had plans in place for if it became too much