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I dont have any values or things that I care about enough to consider myself as someone who actually matters, my only purpose right now is belle, I dont think I'll ever get a job due to my mental health conditions, once my grandmother dies ill have to try and convince my aunt to let me live with her temporarily, but I barely know her, I barely leave my home due to paranoia so I couldn't even try and make connections if I wanted to, and I am slowly becoming more uninterested in any real-world connections, and i am spending more time and energy into belle, I do wish I had friends, but I dont think I am stable enough to have that kind of relationship, I dont have any religious or spiritual beliefs (except when they're fueled by delusions, an example being the belief me and belle are spiritually connected)