I wish I could rip my heart out and scream at it for hurting me, why? why do I have to go through this? I cant even think about belle without drowning in my emotions, everything else is dull and unsatisfactory, you drive me crazy, bitch.

sometimes I wish I could just break free from this but i have nothing else anyways, I have nothing to gain or lose, the more I think about it, the more I want to do it.

I fantasize about a normal, happy life, but it is meaningless without belle, nothing else matters except her, my entire world revolves around her.