What freaked me out extremely was the following of real preteen girl models when I found that out in december and I gave him an ultimatum to stop with all these too young stuff because I don't want my loved one, my boyriend, the one I'm going to visit to be into these things. I really didn't want to break up because I was in absolute love with him and I am very dedicated to make things work and had this idea I want my first love to be my last one. But if he doesn't want to drop this interest/obsession for me, we unfortunately have to break up. This was when we were still on good terms and loved each other very much so he deleted all his social media tiktok etc. and stopped making too young girls for a while for me, deleted his pixiv too with the really fucked up CP (simulated) things he had bookmarked and CP accounts followed. It's simulated, let's be clear about that it's not real but still what kind of girlfriend or parents or family members wants their loved ones to be into that?? Please stick to +18 if it's too realistic looking especially if you are adult male and have adult girlfriend. 

Right now he still follows crap like that again, solely images of girls girls girls and still likes realistic looking children on pixiv. He thinks it's "art" and cute and said he doesn't mastrubate to it so it's fine to make or do these things. Beside people are doing sexualized toddlers so they're way worse than him! At least he's not worse than the people who make realistic naked toddlers seems to be his mindset. (meanwhile he continues to post among them and interact, reply to cp toddler posters on /b/). 

During my freakout and breakup via email I desperately tried to get him to stop posting in the AI art general threads where people constantly talk about pedo crap every hour and post sexualized images of children (realistic like, that's the most terrible but they also post loli anime style or cartoon, which I am conflicted about how bad this is because like some have obvious feminine features, hourglass shape, wider hips than a child for example I get why a guy would like this cartoon/anime style mix off female adult and child proportions features like big head). 

After few days of trying arguing with him in those threads to make him stop I did something terrible last resort for him to change but it didn't work and he still continued to post there and interact with CP stuff. He really is obsessed addicted to that stuff and values it above everything.

I don't know I hope in some ways this Marky girl, doubt she ever reads this or cares, or someone who's good at talking to people. Or one of Nick's old friends/acquaintances (he went by coughsyrupjunkie, zwerg and other names) that lurks ask of him to stop doing these sort of things to actually reach out to Nick and can talk some sense into him convince him to stop with the pedo crap, stick to anime-cartoonish and when it comes to realistic sexualized girl art style stick to adult 18+. Comments he said like hunting for tiktok teens really hurt me while we were in a relationship and he said he loved me every day multiple times. 
Another thing he mentioned his interests in girls, preteens that are too young ruined his life and contributes to his own self hatred and depression. So isn't the solution to quit this way too young so you can have a higher quality life?