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It's very rare for me to say this, but you might genuinely have some kind of addiction or issue regarding porn and the women in it. You're acting like those Japanese idol fans who can't stand it when they find out an idol has a boyfriend. You gotta stop thinking like that and fix that mentality in a psychological way. Maybe an actually good therapist would help. (99% aren't good)
My personal advice to you is to up your standards for the women you look at. Shit like Onlyfans and even egirls is the bottom of the barrel. Good luck.