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 >>/5176/
If this is true with she comes back to the internet telling us how foolish we are thinking that she's dead, I hope some sicko would get offended and take an axe to her neck....huehuehuehue!
She literally disappeared when there was a storm named after her in Europe and right before the pandemic. What a coincidence. I hope she comes back after the pandemic
I noticed one post on ciaras tik tok was deleted some days ago and now today i checked and a few are gone so i guess whoever has access to her accounts are going to try and slowly delete her social media presence. Her instagram is private anyway.
 >>/5201/
those could just naturally vanish over time, possibly over music rights issues. unless you specifically try to save things, everything online will eventually fade away through strikes or from platforms going under.
Hi. Can anyone or does anyone know how heavy of a drug user our beautiful angel Ciara Horan was? Very curious, for knowledge purposes. She seems to be having a time of her life until her death. Thx.
How is one supposed to feel when they orbit a egirl? I started feeling like i was being haunted by ciara. This only happened after i masturbated to her but to be fair i only did so because paul town recommended jerking off to yourself in the mirror because your energy goes back to you after you ejaculate instead of a woman, so i thought i should give my energy to ciara. After i busted a nut i felt regret and my heart started beating real fast and powerfully so i thought she knew and was mad or disgusted so i started panicking and closed my eyes untill the feelings went away. Ever since i have been feeling like she's watching me or she is inside my head so sometimes i muster all my energy (not cum this time just clenching my fist) and i try to shoot it like a kameameha, i usually shoot it into a pillow and stay away from it untill i feel safe again. I know it's fake but i can't help it. Who can realte? Am i doing this orbiting thing wrong?
 >>/5283/
You are severely mentally ill but I'll help you out.
1. The "energy" only gets sent the moment you ejaculate, and only if you're actively thinking of the woman, and more importantly WANTING to send her energy, so jerking off to yourself in the mirror is pointless. In my experience the best results are when you imagine cumming inside her and actively agreeing to give her your seed (like youre enthusiastically agreeing to impregnate her). This whole thing is called Sex Magic btw.
2. You can just deny giving anyone any energy when you nut, youre not automatically losing anything just because you came. Like I said above you need to actively WANT to give it to someone.
3. The bad feelings after the nut may be because the woman doesnt want the energy. I know exactly what you're talking about, but I must say in your case it's 50% that and 50% some mental illness you have, maybe autism. You need to figure out which one of those it is. Ive also experienced the feeling of being watched by the woman who didnt want my energy, and in my case I just didnt give her any more and that was that.
4. Shooting your energy like a kamehameha is severely autistic, but what you're experiencing is the power of Want. That shit is all mental, so clenching your fist and staying away from your pillow is just retarded. As you get better at it you'll be able to do it all in your head via willpower.
5. I personally do the same thing with Agatha. I'll have a 2-3 hour jerk session, and then pull up a pic of her and imagine her finishing me off with her feet. I think the magic also partially works if you additionally imagine your sperm somewhere on her skin. The more passion you have for that part the stronger the effect, hence why I chose her feet personally. I have been doing this for like 2 years now, and since I'm somewhat proficient, I direct my energy towards wanting her to come back online and back to making videos, or at least having a decent\public online presence.

Again, you have some mental illness and autism, but you are on the first step of enlightenment.
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 >>/5288/
5.5. I forgot to mention that while youre jerking it, you can send a (presumably) small extra amount of energy by just imagining yourself finishing to her (or inside her) in your head. This seems to scale with how passionate you are about it and how much you want to do it. Theoretically, you could think this scenario over and over in your head for hours to farm huge amounts of energy, but the issue is that your passion and willpower will likely slow down and weaken over the time and repetition.
Also, I imagine stuff like wanting Agatha to come back requires a great amount of energy. It seems to be related. So for example if I just redirected my energy to wanting her to post a new pic or a new social media post, that would require way less energy.
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 >>/5288/
Okay thanks i think i understand now. The thing you said about want makes sense because i had her on my mind all the time and i think i felt like she was watching only after i tried that energy thing. To be fair i've felt like im being watched even before ciara i just didn't know who and i don't think I'm autistic just so lonely and stupid, im still young though so it could be something everyone experiences and it's my first time. Nice tips, though i am not sure if this is right. Is this even love? Maybe it's just admiration that will fade. When i first saw the spoiler of ciara at the top of the thread i was shocked and grossed out, why? Aren't you supposed to have sex when you love someone? Maybe I'm too self aware and can see this for what it is, voyeurism. Did she post that or was it leaked, either way i am not supposed to know or see it none of this should exist. It's all voyeurism through this screen and i am disgusted with myself.
 >>/5288/
Giving her energy does seem kinda weird and i am ready to drop it but at one point i did tell myself that she wanted it or she wouldn't have made the video and it worked and it felt better than any other time when i was just jerking off to porn but i don't know because the very first times i tried i would lose my erection and my heart would beat slowly and powerfully. I wonder if she was rejecting me :(
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 >>/5292/
> Is this even love?
Probably not. My guess is you are infatuated with her, and her imperfections activate your protective instinct, making you like her even more.
> i was shocked and grossed out, why?
Perhaps you just feel bad about jerking it to someone who has (allegedly) passed. If you want my opinion, I dont think there's anything wrong with doing it.
> I wonder if she was rejecting me
It's possible, but I dont think that's what's happening. You seem like someone who worries a lot and overthinks things, to the point of harming yourself.
Shit, dude. If you're worrying about things to the point where you lose your erection and feel disgusted, maybe it's time to relax and let go of those thoughts. It's not good to let yourself be consumed.
Ultimately, you should just be simple and honest with yourself. Jerk it if you wanna, dont if you dont. You will probably feel better once you learn to take it easy.
 >>/5295/
You're right! That one time it worked i thought about her and got an erection the other times i forced it. I am supposed to wait for her call and be ready to give her my energy. I am sure that one time it was right because i also felt it in my chest it was a warm fuzzy feeling and i had no regret or disgust it was pure.
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It's hard to believe someone as foolish and stupid as Ciara could exist. "Oh yeah, let me down these fent laced benzos. What could go wrong?". 

With modern opioid addictions you have a 100% cahnce of death if you keep it up long enough since they lace everything with fent now.
 >>/896/
How is every Ciara orbiters health? Read a few threads by some that were dealing with addiction saying they were close to ending it
 >>/5308/
Dont smoke, drink, do drugs, or have casual sex. Highest substance use is coffee once every 2-3 months, or a paracetamol for really bad colds, every 2-3 years. Work out regularly and can manage my caloric intake easily.
Then again, I only like Ciara for one reason.
 >>/5262/
How does that even happen? The first time I saw even weed in my life was at like 24.
What happened to "say no to drugs", anyway?
 >>/5314/
Her first bf was a druggie and introduced hard drugs such as heroin to her. Ironically, she became more addicted than him. There was a moment where he wanted her drugs back from Ciara but she just laughed and being mean at him. There is a recording of that and I'm looking for that. If anyone has it, it would be great to share it here.
 >>/5358/
I always thought it was a shame that she started wearing just t-shirts and beanies towards the end of her life. She was gorgeous in whatever, but especially in something like this that works so well with her eyes, her skin, whatever it is.
It's been nearly 2 years, so I think Ciara would have resurfaced if she was actually alive in hiding. If for anything, her menagerie of junkie idiots she hung around with would be impossible to keep a secret.
 >>/4386/
This is literally how it always fucking goes. It's a tale as old as time that ignorance is the downfall.
Everyone grows up thinking they are invincible, and for some it never wears off. Some are too stupid to realise you are literally a dime a dozen, and you're just as susceptible to making bad life choices as anyone else. Like as if no one's heard that famous saying about learning from history.
It fucking pisses me off, man. They are such GLARING pitfalls, and so many young people's lives are irreparably ruined because of them

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