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I've been home an hour, can't stand still because I've conditioned myself to think being at home means getting drunk.
Semi productive but agitated and unsatisfied.
One little gulp and a lay down to watch iron chef is needed.
Just need to get myself through a few hours wait, another shift then selling my old car.
Life is struggling. Any alleviating coping mechanisms are just additional burdens in the long run. The cotton wool makes me soft.