A late Happy Birthday anon. Do you live near anyone? I could understand you are lonely if you have no one nearby and you live isolated in the country on a farm house, otherwise if you live in a community you should go out to some events and meet people. There are always those like you who want to socialize with others. Your next best pal could theoretically live right next door to you and you never knew it because you never had to courage to try talking to them. Never know until you try.