Everyone keeps asking questions, like, "why is my life so shit?", and killing themselves or contemplating killing themselves, or doing things to serve their own needs like working harder, stressing themselves out, etc., when the answer all along was Jesus, who you denied long ago because you thought you could do it all without God

Simple as that. 
You denied God and became evil and wicked and it really started getting bad under Obama when Christians fell away from the religion and began preaching a false one.
I don't really care. You did all of this to yourself and you're gonna suffer for denying God himself

I sat there and waited. That's the whole point of this verse:

> For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, 25 whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God's righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. 26 It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.

"Present time" means now. This is happening now. I'm passing over former sins to wait to see if you'll regain faith in Jesus