what are your thoughts on girls with self harm scars?

and i dont mean the typical 2010 tumblr "normal" ones; i mean like full on huge big scars all over her body. 

i already dont look good to begin with and so far the only guy that was willing to fuck me was someone with a self harm fetish but all i want is a normal man to hold me but i look so fucking disfigured that i dont think thats possible

like im desentisized to my own scars bc in my eyes theyre nothing and not "good enough" but people who see my body always have the most horrified look in their face and some just start crying.

what do you guys think?