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1) You are still very young and have potential to snap out of this and change your life for the better NOW.
2) You have bad parents and friends unfortunately, both should have been teaching you basic behavior and how to socialize rather than abandoning you or lying to you.
3) You are way too sensitive and insecure about yourself. Girls notice that and it is a big turn off. Girls like men who are masculine and confident in themselves, not depressed and weak.
4) You need to start exercising and get some sunlight. Consider a change in diet too. Stop drinking soda, stop eating as junk food. Incorporate a balanced diet with meat, vegetables, eggs, fish, fiber, fruit and nuts. Not too much of any one thing, a balanced palate of these healthy foods. Learn to cook. It is not as hard as you think.
5) You desperately need to get out of your "safe space" and try new things and meet new people. You are a teenager for Christ sake! You should be living it up. THIS IS THE BEST OPPORTUNITY TO HAVE FUN YOU WILL EVER HAVE! Teenage years bro! Although don't get too crazy (I had three friends in my high school years who died doing too much crazy shit like hard drugs, driving drunk, etc).
6) The longer you wait to make friends the more likely you won't have any friends by the time you grow up and have to get a job. Socialize NOW before you start to lose your mental ability later.
7) Education is not the most important thing in life. Learn skills. Learn how to fix utilities. Learn how to build things. Consider the trade. Don't go into too much debt which you will later regret. Be willing to work to get by in life but avoid going into lots of debt. Student loans are a scam today, beware.
7) Do not worry too much what other people think about you. Be you but do not be insecure. Everyone is different. Everyone has their own problems. Be persistent in what you want and never give up. You will never get the girl you want in life if you just give up. You will never be able to live the life you want to live if you just give up. You have to keep trying, that is what life is about. Keep trying, every time you fail just get back up and persist, it will make you stronger and you will get a lot more of what you want out of life.