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Anon, LSD worked really well for me with all this shit. I'm not saying I recommend it, because without a specialist at hand, everything can turn out the opposite, and from your description of yourself, I can assume that you're going to get a bad trip at a decent dosage. But passing through it with ego death will help you live this life more comfortable and better.
When it comes to payment, you go to bestchange, you find it in Google. There, on the left, you choose the pair you need - I send, for example, collected, and receive BTC. You get a bunch of exchangers, they show you the rate, the minimum amount, and the data in the spirit of "works in auto mode" or "may ask for a cast of the anus." I would advise you to choose the first one from above, which meets the requirements for your amount and no anal casts.
In Google, you also look for Electrum wallet, from their site you put it yourself. Don't think it's hard, it's not fucking hard. It'll have addresses, don't use each one more times. You look at the cost of the post in the bits on the site, in the exchange you look at it the necessary amount of rubles. Since there will still be a commission from the electrum to the site, add a little to the required amount of bits and already request it from the exchanger. Maybe I'm writing in a mess, there was a guide somewhere - probably in a cancer hat.
Also I last time on the electrum fucked the commission, but there just load on the network was high eye, usually the commission is modest. The last three replenishments I did past the electrum, just on the site asked for a new address without tranzaches and immediately threw it from the exchanger. It is clear that this is still a risk, but the amount there was 3-3-5 thousand, to lose, as it were not joy, but not tragedy. It all came.