I can’t fucking do anything about myself on the trips of medium-high strength, when you just lose your memory, but not to the level of ego death, etc., then I start like a moron trying to intensively remember something, collect memories, make some sense of everything that happens. As a result, I fall into some magnifiers, where I am trying to do something even in a circle, then I remember that I am actually doing shit and I need to stop trying to do it, and then again I forget, cling to something, get distracted and begin to build up some meanings that have been lost.
And I just waste time, because nothing comes out of it, and sometimes because the brain is dispersed and moves a hundred thoughts, insights that lead to something, then immediately lost, then somehow even becomes sad.
I don't know what kind of moron is that. I think maybe next time I'll write a short note that you have to take everything and go with the flow of the trip to look at it and remember it at such moments