Before you continue:
(Please note that this story is a little bit dated, it was written about a month and a half ago.
I made a couple of small updates here and there, but since she's not the same anymore, it's been untouched for a long time.)
I'm very proud of myself for not letting my feelings get in the way.
- - - - PART 3 - COMING HOME (BACK TO SANITY) - - -
So after all that, I decided to come back to the square.
I came here to regroup, and it was very productive. I have a much better idea of who I want to be and what I want to do now.
I got over my depression that I'd been feeling since I dropped.
I don't know if that's good. I just wanted to write something about the bonbi thing.
I'm not sure if I should have made that a note.
I've been looking at all the posts and pages I've made and found that I've changed a lot since I was bonbi's friend.
(I'm not even going to say that I changed because of her, just that we came to relate differently in the same period of time.)
I remember how the whole purpose of this page was for the people that hated bonbi and hated me to know that I was there, in case they ever needed to talk about her, but...
I think I was just a tool, a tool to get out the rage that bonbi had been making me suffer with over the years.
It was my way to show them that I'm here to help. I'm here to help her and help the people who love her.
That made me feel really good at first, but I don't really know what it was for. I was too focused on being with her again.
And she never really responded to any of it. If she's reading this now, I just want to let her know that I tried.
I'm going to get my friends here to start adding comments about their experiences with bonbi and with me.
I'm going to do the same for the people who love bonbi.
I don't want to be the subject of gossip for the sake of being interesting.
I just want to talk to people. I want to see how their perspective has changed.
When I was talking about what I've changed, that's what I really want to know.
I'm really interested in everyone's thoughts on bonbi, on me and on both of us now.
I'm interested in our new roles in their stories, in our new place and future in each other's lives.
I like looking at old pages on here, not really because I'm reminiscing about what happened between us, but just because they remind me of people I like and how they used to be and because I've changed since then.
I think it'll be good to keep this place alive.
I just want to talk. So if anyone is interested, please let me know.