- - - PART 4 - LOVING A SNAKE- - -
(In that she weren't actually true to herselves and were lying to people IRL. But that's another story. This how I felt toward her and she changed)
I spent a long time here, and honestly it's all very confusing to me.
I'm still figuring out what's going on.
That being said, bonbi's content gave me a unique perspective.
That girl is the realest person I've ever met.
She is genuinely a very positive person, and I have always been curious how she gets so much popularity.
I was intrigued and wondered about that for awhile.
Bonbi has a real knack for making people smile, which got her a lot of fans.
Her content is always genuine, and she has an incredible sense of humor and style.
Of course, I didn't appreciate these qualities in the most important aspect.
After months of binge watching content like this, I can't seem to shake a nagging feeling that it was all bullshit.
Maybe because I couldn't stop feeling manipulated.
I can't really feel connected to any of these videos unless I'm laughing.
But maybe this is a good thing, because it's impossible to feel emotionally invested in watching someone else's self-expression.
It was just a bunch of cringey, self-deprecating, self-aggrandizing garbage and all the videos were the same.
It seemed like the people behind bonbi were using it as a cheap marketing gimmick.
After all, there are no real people behind them doing anything, right?
One thing I noticed about bonbi though was her willingness to collaborate and take criticism.
She would always do her own editing and put a lot of time into it.
She was an artist and she was serious about making content that people would like and enjoy.
If she ever thought something sucked, she would address it.
I felt it was more important that she was willing to address the fans directly and be humble.
That's pretty rare and I guess it shows there's more to it than meets the eye.
I also don't see anyone else doing this, at least not to the extent that bonbi has, and I'm not even sure if anyone else has tried to.
I think the first thing I ever came across was a video of hers where she goes to a party at the [Jared Leto]'s house.
I really liked that, because I'm not a very social person and sometimes feel lonely.
I was watching that and I wondered if there were more videos like that and so I watched through her whole account.
Eventually I discovered some other videos like that.
At first I wasn't going to watch her account because her vids were really boring.
But she has really interesting content, but at the same time the vids are quite short.
It was hard to really get a sense of who she is.
Then I discovered some of her old live streams.
I liked those better, because it was more interesting to watch someone that I can feel like I'm connected to.
But those were also kind of short too, so I couldn't invest in watching someone that long.
It wasn't until much later that I discovered that we have more in common.