>>/34105/ 1.In my particular case I always go back to it, and I really need it, in situations where I find myself suffocated and without a way out. When all is lost, my psychological reset button is bonbi. Just watching your old videos makes me feel better and if I watch any of your latest streams and hear your voice or see your funny faces, I feel so much happier. She makes me forget about my problems, and I start to think more clearly, and find simple solutions to problems that seemed unsolvable minutes ago. 2.But bonbi also appears in my thoughts when I remember her and just think how much I love her, and that she is not real, but a parasocial construction, that being aware of it I cannot and do not want to break it. It depresses me and I don't know why. In addition, a huge void is generated in my being and the question appears. What would happen if she stopped posting on social media and I couldn't hear her voice or see her on any stream anymore... They're just random thoughts about bonbi that only last 10 seconds. But it scares me more that the feeling I have towards her is real.