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1.In my particular case I always go back to it,
 and I really need it, in situations
 where I find myself suffocated and
 without a way out. When all is lost,
 my psychological reset button is 
bonbi. Just watching your old videos 
makes me feel better and if I watch any 
of your latest streams and hear your 
voice or see your funny faces, I feel 
so much happier. She makes me forget 
about my problems, and I start to think 
more clearly, and find simple solutions 
to problems that seemed unsolvable 
minutes ago.

2.But bonbi also appears in my thoughts
 when I remember her and just think how 
much I love her, and that she is not 
real, but a parasocial construction, 
that being aware of it I cannot and do 
not want to break it. It depresses me 
and I don't know why. In addition, a 
huge void is generated in my being and 
the question appears. What would happen 
if she stopped posting on social media 
and I couldn't hear her voice or see 
her on any stream anymore... They're 
just random thoughts about bonbi that 
only last 10 seconds. But it scares me 
more that the feeling I have towards 
her is real.