Steam summary TLDR; its not going great - Has decided to quit streaming [read until end] - Feels like if she keeps going people will just tire of her - Doesnt like that people say they preferred her streams before she was on meds - Was in a relationship with someone who told her she was not as much fun as she used to be and doesnt have as many viewers as she used to have. - Wanted to try something new - drawing stream - but one guy ruined it - Is off her meds because she wants to be more entertaining but its not working - Wants to quit Cosplay as well - Feels insecure posting on IG because she does not have access to photographers so they are all the same, taken in her bedroom - Wishes she could cosplay and post content when she wants to and not have people shit on her - Cries after almost every time she makes content for OF - Going to keep doing OF because she needs money - Hates that people liked her most when she was at her lowest (streaming before she was on meds) - Decided she should just be more lewd and 'suck it up' - Was being pressured to do some stuff she didn't want to do [OF messages?] Still felt pressured even after saying no. - Next stream will be showing something very cool - Thinks she is going to have to post more lewd stuff - When she spoke of being suicidal people she was close to told her not to joke but she wasn't joking.