I'd give my life if I could undo all these years of pain and bring back the real Bonbi. If I could make her happy. If I could protect her from harm. That may not be saying much since I want to die anyway. But even if I had the happiest life imaginable, I would do the same. That girl was a living emblem of the infinite, of all that is sublime and sweet and beautiful in this accursed, wretched world. I've prayed many times I might die or suffer if only she could be saved...
Anyone reading this will think me mad, and they will be correct, I am sure. But know too I mean every word I say...

I could never say these things to anyone, not a therapist, a friend, not family, not someone I loved. But I can say it here, where I am hardly a person at all, where no one shall ever know my name...