There are two things I can't get over. (Which I will never get over.) One is how wonderful she was in her prime. The other is how horribly degraded she is now. It doesn't seem possible that someone who was that amazing could be this wretched, or that someone who is this wretched could ever have been so glorious. But they are both true and real. It's like two contradictory statements I am forced to recognize as both being true... I am witness to both the most wonderful and the worst thing anywhere at the same time, in the same person. It tears my soul apart... I'm obsessed with her in her glory and obsessed with how something that beautiful and sublime could fall so low...