Every time I think of something sad, I think of Bonbi. I think of her and what happened to her. Be it a sad poem or a sad song or a tragedy in the news, the sorrow I feel is always for her too. She always comes to mind. When I think of the sorrow of death and decay, I think of her.

I know that's stupid, I know that's crazy, I know that's retarded, I know that's ludicrious, I know that's idiotic, I know that's evidence of madness. But that changes nothing. What happened to that precious girl is for me a sign and symbol of all the sadness in the universe. If I could change anything in the past, my heart would want to change what happened to her.