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Mental Health:
 
Taken from her blogspot, it's old but it can slightly paint a picture of her.
 
Sunday, March 28, 2010
'normality'
I hate the fact that I need to take pills to feel 'normal.' What is normal, exactly? I hate it. I've lost all sense of normality. When the pills start to kick in, I can't take it anymore. I begin to feel like I'm in some sort of zombie-like state of mind. I can't shake it out. I feel like I'm not really there. It may look like I am, but I feel like I'm in a dream where I try to run but I can't.
Posted by crystal at 10:27 AM
 
https://imlivingjusttodie.blogspot.com/2010/03/normality.html
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Saturday, March 13, 2010
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i haven't been able to become genuinely close to someone, for as long as i can remember. the thing that troubles me the most, is that i don't even know when it happened. when could it have happened? who changed me? how could they? i am scared of the fact that i am scared of someone caring for me..it doesn't seem natural. i really don't know what it feels like to be normal anymore.
 
https://imlivingjusttodie.blogspot.com/2010/03/blog-post.html
 
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Thursday, February 11, 2010
meaningless
i felt like you took a piece of me with you when you left all those times. i wonder sometimes, how could a person have such control over my emotions? drug abuse, depression, i've been through shit that really could have killed me, and i'm still struggling with those problems. but it doesn't matter to you, right? i'm such a fucked up girl, you knew all i wanted was someone to care. what a manipulator you are, sir. if destroying me was your plan, congrats, you have succeeded.
 
Posted by crystal at 5:51 PM
 
https://imlivingjusttodie.blogspot.com/2010/02/meaningless.html
 
She had suffered though drug addiction, depression
 
She has relationship issues due to her porn issues now; she cannot get a geniune connection with anyone, which is sad. She is a sad, sad "human". hurts doesn't it?
 
The blog posts you provided reflect a deeply distressed individual—likely a young adult—experiencing profound emotional turmoil, untreated or poorly managed mental illness, substance dependency, abandonment trauma, and intense feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness. From a psychoanalytic or psychological lens, we can infer several key issues or internal conflicts the original poster (OP) may be dealing with.