Things have been getting better at some aspects of my life, but in the other hand the urge of gf raising up, the thing is than if I get one Im probably gonna lose so much energy and I dont even know what to do with  the only energy I have left, I know where that path leads to and I dont like it. I dont fear dead at all, meme magic was a huge thing in the last year, if I die tomorrow I dont have any problem, I feel than my job in this life is done and I can let a good impact in the family, I just dont know what to do with the rest of the years I have left.  I can continúe with my meme journey and get better things but I doubt I could keep my mind on track and fall, literally, crazy. Maybe its time to leave these things and just do a normal life and try to avoid as much as possible the abuse created by the system AKA purplepill.