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> It caused me to not trust people.
Yep, hidden in a big shell like me. I started that way when two "colleagues" robbed me the PS2 memory cards, San Andreas and Tekken 5 when I was 11. From then, I started to feel less innocent.

> It just seemed like to me everyone could be insane to me. I would obsess over remembering things because of weird double think that seemed to happen (What are you talking about? I always hated waffles, I don't know how could you be remembering that I liked them for a the past ten years you've know me).
Those thoughts are disheartening and I wouldn´t wish those moments to no one. I didn´t get to that point because my memory has patial memory. It considers those moments not worth to remember just to not drive into those situations. When all of a sudden, one changes overnight, it causes huge turns in direction all of a sudden, this is why it was a big test for you.

> I would notice how a person spoke and what they ate at breakfast all to make sure I wasnt going crazy. I became solidified as a introvert.
It was the logical step to take and survive to that period of time. 
> I withdrew to an almost crazy degree to my interest, sans what few souls I knew who weren't a part of this shitshow.
Outsiders help a lot whenever you need a bit of support for those hard periods. They may be temporal or not be as close as you were with your friends, but they help a lot.

> It is also a big reason why I developed the whole edgy, observer of tragedies mentality because I was on speaking terms with most of them and only rarely in the cross fire for most of it, so I got a whole cross section of perspectives. 
It´s funny that you think you are bad at writing greens or having fear to jump on them. I mean, even the edgy phases could have something productive or good to exploit. Listening to multiple perspectives helps you a lot to collect info that while not necessary, makes you richer as a person and for ways of thinking. 

> It is also why I became so fascinated with betrayal. Probably one of the reasons why I found myself detached to the mainstream as well. My dad crazy taste in things rubbing off on me because I had no close frieds to hang out with, with the only thing that was new media that I was consuming for awhile was ponies.
Hmm, that explains the little to no affection to social media and how you are here. I thought DWK was one of those few cases in which someone survives because of ponies. It proves that the meme is actually real, this show has saved lives and hard periods.
 
> Naturally a lot of this things have faded now, but not completely.
It´s obvious, those things that happen in your early years usually have more impact than the later ones in your life.
> While not to the point of paranoia, I am still an extremely distrustful and withdrawn to all but a few person.
And I perfectly get it. Who gives you reasons to trust anybody wihtout reason? 
> On a brighter note I suppose is that it caused me to accept somethings about myself that I probably would have suppressed if I had a normal teenage social life.
And you did well. You cannot deny what you have been because it would be lying to yourself. Facingthem and even know your limits or personality helps you a lot for moving forward and for future things that you want. If you have passed those moments, then the rest is easy in comparison.

What can I say? It´s not the first time I´ve read personal stories directed to me. I can only congratulate you for surviving and that those periods are over. There´s no magic nor divine things to solve them but the simple fact that you are alive is good enough to be relieved. 

I cannot do much from here. Just posting some beautiful artworks from Koveliana (an artist that deserves to be supported) and an album that has caught my attention lately. 
https://youtube.com/watch?v=71xmrULJ-ms 
Not sure if this song fits that much, but I would recommend to find some comfort after the storm and then, face what could happen next. 
Cheers and giddy up.