I think that I have ended the political parts of your replies, so let´s cool it down a bit with other things.

 >>/2098/
> The Tree still stands! 
it´s just another Lemon Tree.I wish my head would turn around for something...else.

> There is one thematic element that really might 
the funny thing is that the Tree of Harmony has changed over the years and it may not seem to be as innocent as it seems.

 >>/2099/
> I personally don't like tragedies myself. with a few exceptions.
yeah, save a few situations, you cannot do much with it.

> My main writing when I was younger was actually similar to your's, I used to write little moments to songs that I liked, never completed a fun anything then, because I just wanted to get to the emotional high or low that I felt like at that moment.
I feel that. However, I have to be a little bit more selective. Sure, you can write about whatever while listening to any song you feel like and it´s actually, like you said, something for fun that gets your emotions at that time. The thing is that I have found that method....because I have not found alternatives to it. I do quote them subtly (save when the song is actually the main focus) because they are the reason why I have built all that story. I have never considered myself a writefag and even if I am, it´s because others says so. My tricks are all referenced and there is not much beyond having a passionate time at writing and connecting the heart with the brain. I have found myself to write something just for more content and I use the greens as a medium. Nothing else.
> My loss of it was way more personal but I feel that wondering if you can full downtime.
familiar issues....yeah, you didn´t need to have politics to deal with that rough process. I don´t know what hurt more but I guess, having problems with the one family you can have hits harder because of that. I may have the idea from what I have read in your previous posts.
> Though over the past couple of years I have started to have some carefree unguarded moments that I wouldn't have thought possible.
probably because the brain wants to forget about it or pass. Other events get over it and put a little fog in the middle when they get replaced or overtaken for chill moment you may have had recently or in better periods. I may have told the darkest part of 2016 but I have the wild MLP ride, the university period has been the most satisfying part of my lifetime and little mindless moments here and there.
In fact, after those negative posts I wanted to tell a contrast about it and it´s that 2017 and now with half of my grade over, I feel more comfortable and fear less from the unknown. Less and less, politics doesn´t affect me as much in personal stuff, I have known a way to handle it and even put a chill mentality while discussing it. This is why you don´t find such trouble with taboo topics, they barely surprise me even if I know less or more depending on the topic.
Basically, that loss of innocence has opened up me into the complete reality, so I have all the cards in front of my face while others have not noticed them and I feel relaxed about knowing the general situation.
> most of my interactions IRL are mired from that by distrust, and I am very closed off reflective worry wart still pretty often, even if I'm way more inane and less rigid. I'd say that it's not impossible not get some of it back
> perhaps time will be th ultimate judge. 
it will be different. That doesn´t mean that the impact will be forgotten so easily, that distrust is kept for good reasons. But there is always fun even when you carry the pain on it at full time. I have found a way to filter it by writing and exposing those emotions hidden through the text. What I mean is that, nothing is too positive nor too pessimistic. The dark rough periods will come inevitably. 
Time will be the judge but you don´t like misery. So it means that nothing will be too obscure or as tragic as some events that happened in the past, you are better prepared than before (so do I). Those unfortunate challenges happened...and nothing hurt...