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> Me in 2016 and 18.
you cannot catch a break,uh?

> It does remind me though of my childhood things by the way you describe trying to describe it, and the fact that it is something that you would certainly hold tightly to yourself for engaging in such fantasy. 
yeah, of course this daydreaming would come more from a child with its innocent mind about the fantasies built because of video games or fantastical worlds than a post teenager. 
How would you explain to someone else that I daydream in a closed room with music about pony stuff?
I must say that I also daydreamed before in 2013 and 2014 about PKMN or diverse things so I have only made it more obvious and paid it off with these fics and ideas.
I cannot do that because otherwise one would call me crazy or too autistic to even consider a normal life when in fact I hide everything pretty well and very subtly as if ponies never happened in my life. 

Not something to be very proud of save when you see the final result written in a fic. 

> There is just something about the specificity mixed with vagueness that I really feel. A lot of things being personal. Even thinking about bring up elements that you knew about, but never even actively thought. A bunch feelngs and little tiny quirks that becomes a puzzle fr even finding the right words for. It is something deeply personnel. Even if I may not fully get it I fully get not fully getting it and I won't pry further.
there are parts that are defined by themselves yet they don´t connect or make any sense because there are very extreme songs between the actions that lead into another very different thing. 

I could define them and they are stuck in some songs whenever I listen to them because I have tried to puzzle them too much and that guessing game still remains even if it becomes secondary.

I do have a few ideas that I can mention that could be somewhat productive or at least cause some curiosity (if I ever forget about those images running in my head).

One of them was about trying to take a picture of Thorax disguising himself as Twilight in the Canterlot garden that started all. After taking them, I wasn´t convinced about it and I just nodded no to him and threw that copy of the old days to the water. 

I leave the camera with a timer and instead of having him as Twilight, I lean on the tree while Thorax remains in his actual form and we end up with a black and white photo with serious faces....and tired as well.

Another one is that not only I dream about me but also other characters come into my head. I have daydreamed about Nightmare Rarity singing a la This Day Aria the song The Falconer. This fandom has always liked to ponify celebrities and pop culture. Well, I must say that I have considered Nightmare Rarity as the ponified version of Nico, singing about her misery in gloomy yet beautiful places but I have hardly the backstory defined.

Not sure if I will ever get to write about her in the future....

Music is a beautiful thing but I never expected to find the creativity with this setup and childish show.