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>>/4567/ > the Summer Sun Setback was the first sounds of thunder. indeed. > Mind kinda shutsdown ain't it? I have gotten that before... not exactly a shutdown but more like a response from my body that in hindsight, that period of sleep becomes valuable. If I didn´t sleep at that time, maybe I would have become a different person during those moments. > My mind has been quite active, downright inspired at times. that picture clearly proves what you are saying here. > I still managed to make some progress on /endpone/ stuff durring what downtime I had. I feel such an urge to write everything from fics to overanalyzing background motifs from the show. the brain is really fascinating honestly. I could make some deep interpretations from that little piece but it´s certainly funny that we could advanced much more as a species, yet we fall into the same questions over and over again. What´s even more amazing is that a show like this drives its fans to think this way, directly or subtly. It´s like you are thinking as if we are living at the edge of the world. > Stress/restlessness. just what one could understand from your lines. > Getting my grandfather adjusted back home from hospital, then when things are just starting to go to normal the rest of the family is either unavailable or gets sick, and though it wasn't the worst thing in the world man that was tiring physically. it´s like: "I´ve done my part but I get two cups of the same tea as if one wasn´t enough". Just like poetry in the wrong sense. > Then having to help install an appliance that was pretty heavy... yeah you bet. goddamn, I wouldn´t like to have that task of sacrifice. > Some people could say I was from grandparents and the fact that I have done some such as failed family venture with sheep... among other things that have given me some experience in physical labor. well, at least looking at it as a positive thing, you have gained that experience so it will become more automatized and slightly less unbearable whenever you get to repeat it. > Yet you have had to delicate yourself to one task for years to get it done and the stakes are your life's goals while I have been more of a background character with everything being in a semi-random state. So I may not know such to that degree of dedication with such mental exhaustion. obviously there are lots of differences between them. The biggest mental exhaustion from my part was because of getting everything done for passing a couple of subjects in the end, not to mention that what I am studying is a preference of mine. What you have been going through falls more into the healthcare side and one of the reasons why I don´t see it all that appealing is how grey and utterly sacrificed it sounds, both in studies and in practices. I admire those who can handle that huge amount of responsibility over the years. While you have been focusing on the physical side for the most part, I don´t know if there are secondary effects after staying too long in a hospital. No wonder you have felt inspired, probably because the ambient around you had an impact during that time.