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> Of course I am going to see the light sooner or later but you know, I wanted to share how it feels to stay adapted in a defensive mode to such extraordinary conditions that people might not handle all that well.
For me the past several years have always been unstable and I've been more of a homebody anyway, so I thought it wouldn't effect me much. Our quarantine in Texas still allowed some personal travel and with property to take care of I still got out of the house some. 

But it has too a degree.
> I am starting to wear out a little bit, as if I have a permanent fatigue that stays in the background hidden there, always uncertain towards the future. That uncertainty kind of makes me less energetic to do anything really even for things that I like.
This  though I known such feels for along time i suppose.  I fear for the commence, authoritarianism, etc. You get the picture.

> I am doing relatively fine and I am impressed to have kept the board in the same tone (from my part)
And you did a really good job  now it's my turn. 

Alrighty, POLS. Flat tired from pushing myself hard on getting a bunch of random junk done. Fic reply tomorrow (though it maybe the next day for you depending on timezone stuff). Night /endpone/!