I don't mean for this post to be demoralizing to any anons; ive been with anons for years and I know full well how strong you all are, this is solely my personal feelings.@£
But I'm tired, anons. Ive become a hermit who's in his 30s and is unemployed. I love people but I'm so sick of this society that has degraded and eroded over the years, it's taken its toll on me and I feel numb to it all nowadays. And when i think about how many more years of thus I can take, it starts to bother me more than I thought it would. On bad nights like tonight the numbness becomes despair which makes me want to sleep and not wake up. I'm lost and im not sure where to go from here. I hope you can pray for me. I'll be asking God for some hope and guidance.