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Anon, I'm a bit older than you, but sick, unemployed, on SSDI, and nearly a total hermit now, too.  I hate how everything is and am just frustrated with life.  I sleep most of the day, though that's a medical problem for me.
First thing you gotta do is take care of yourself.  Ask God for the right job, and go from there.  Routine helps, even if you are a hermit.
Then, go onto the regular qresearch, and post your prayer request in the prayer thread, https://8kun.top/qresearch/res/18106825.html
I get where you're coming from, though my circumstances are different.  I'll pray for you though.  But post your prayer there, too.