I often feel like I've hit a dead end too. I know there'll probably be some way out at some point though. I've always wanted to live a long life but lately I wonder whether that's really going to be possible for someone like me. I'd like to believe that it's all just a "story" and I'll be able to adapt and find my place in the world but I don't know about that. I feel like whatever I have, whatever makes me incompatible, must be either neurological or very deep rooted. Maybe I got passed around in orgies when I was a newborn and I just don't consciously remember any of it, who knows. The fact of the matter is that it hasn't been easy and it's not any easier now. Hopefully one day it will be. I haven't lost all hope, though I wouldn't say I'm "hopeful" either. I just try to stay alive and work towards doing the things that seem like they would help 

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That's great. Good for you Doc. Just don't forget to save up for a new fridge first before you start splurging on RGB peripherals and sex dolls