https://youtube.com/watch?v=lrRPlF6yOkI speaking of making your own choices this vid is relevant. something very relatable that I hadn't seen anyone talk about on yt before was the part about trying to learn new things in very idiosyncratic (retarded) ways that lead to failure and frustration. I'm familiar with that problem and it must be why I only seem to learn things properly in a school setting, where other people choose the approach for me