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> guess I finally found something that works
Nice. Keep experimenting with whatever that works.

> Oh boy, this is gonna take many years for me (Its been 2 years already).
Forget the years part. Forget time itself. Time is a meme. The most important thing that matters is will. Stronger will can delete weaknesses faster. You need to reclaim your authority. You probably need the part when you say. I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS. With the mentality of the vengeful gods and instead of senselessly breaking everything in your room you direct that energy towards your weaknesses and rip them out.
> I tried a working with Michael recently, but I guess I failed to evoke him propperly
Evoke him more and have more faith in your power. That is how you get "authority"
> I got close to an heroing when it all started
Now that is sad. Not having the will to live is the worst thing you can do facing a hostile entity. That means you will be kicked until your "survivor instinct" kicks in. Also a way for "waking up" overly passive people.
> Sometimes I feel like giving up on magic too since I feel like I can't do propper meditation and visualizations
Good news. You don't necessarily need those things. It's just a way to "put you closer to truth" but I also can't meditate because I don't have time to do that. So I am doing my magical workings while doing my daily life. Also visualization is literally daydreaming with more willpower in it. And do you know why I know you can do it?
> I feel like I can't
> feel
it means it's that you don't have enough confidence. You need to manifest your willpower somehow. You don't need to find your mastersword at the get go. But grab it use it and when you see something better use that. 
> planned on fixing myself up with the remote, but with my thought control and this guy here I don't think its gonna go well
Yeah it's kinda malfunctioning when you have too much karma and kinda painful but when you start to clear them it's a real help. It helped me a lot. I am recommending that tool. And having diverse ways to solve your problems always a good idea. It's called being resourceful. If something doesn't work you either change the way how you do things or you find a complete new way. When I was getting rid of my weaknesses I used every new idea I could conceive. I had enough of that wretched existence of mine.
> ended up being assraped in a dream
you know what is the secret of not having nightmares? Becoming the scariest monster in the dream. I am not saying it's simple. When I got rid of all the weaknesses of my personality and made myself the nobody can fuck with me or it dies attitude do you know what happened? They went after my childhood self. I had dreams where I went back to my childhood and had no recollection that I am an adult now and fucked with me. Because that was a part of my existence that was vulnerable. How to solve that? You need to find your child self and integrate it into yourself. Like you were never a weak little child. You were always the most powerful being ever. You go back and be the psychotherapist and the trainer of your child self until it joins you and you are no longer different. Now that I am whole I have no weaknesses. Dreams are less interesting now :/