I feel a bit stuck. The only obstacles in mundane life are vaguely dangerous global events that I don't care about and my own laziness. Besides that everything is pretty comfy.
But I actually don't care about it all. I have learned a lot and grown a lot since I first got the vampirism spell with Alyssa, but I don't see any progress in regards to spiritual skills or the spell, except maybe much more confidence with "asking" for things and getting it, aside from spiritual wisdom or guidance for some reason. I feel mortal and am plagued by depression because of the boredom or futility of everyday life. No NDE and the only thing I actively feel growing is resentment for humanity and everyday wisdom. One of the few things that keep me going when I wake up from indulging in mundanity is the premise of mystery. It feels like seeing the stars and full moon on a clear night sky, so wonderful and yet so far away, simply out of reach. I remember my little note on the back side of the paper that I drew the sigil on that has followed me since then, and simply feel lost. Time goes by and everything evolves and changes. How are you doing so far? Care to share some advice?