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Complicated. There is some interesting and important thing about entities and the way they operate.
But only in the relation to me so don't worry.
She doesn't want me to tell you details why this happened... and it's very hard to put into human terms. The point is that entities "mend" chaos differently. They have a different kind of "order" law or technique. Now the real problem starts when they start to interact with something that is already being interacted with something else that has a mechanics of doing things in a completely different way. Oh my fuck I am not making sense.
Whatever. She kinda wants me to tell you something >>/2165/
> some modules are basically cheating and it might not be the best thing for enlightenment
You need to start learning skills that help you reach enlightenment. The spiderqueen can teach a lot of skills. When I read that site what she can do my first thought was
> I did those things myself already
but because reading about entities usually summons them and some voice in my head told me 
> keep reading it will be fun
She appeared and I learned I might have those skills but I am extremely shit and disorganized with them so she started fixing things in my body
Yeah my magecraft is the mad scientist kind because I have access to the higher thought realms and I use every "invention" of mine to be able to get even closer to it. It has a low price of my sanity but i am good at managing it. It's a technique I developed some years ago. You send your mind into overdrive mode take some steps back and while your mind is busy being overloaded you make changes in it
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It's like this but instead of passion it's more like obsession and pure madness

Now I have enough tools to do spirituality properly. And yes I know the Nirvana feel. It made me scared. I feared bliss and happiness because whenever I felt happy in life something decided it's time to make the difficulty higher. Also you shouldn't go and get high on that feeling. There is much to do on the path.

Now I don't know what are your learning methods but you need to get that "skill" that let's you internalize higher knowledge without reading books. Socrates hated communicating through writing for a reason. There are concepts that you cannot convey properly through writing and reading. And this module is quite balanced tbh. But then again my most compatible module was the karma purging one and after that so many things happened that I am not even using it the same way.
The point is you either find a way to unlock higher learning skills or use that. I think that is the nicest creation of BO so far. Shame he didn't make it sooner. But now I can use the built in ancient genetic super computing skills and I am way too aware that my current task is to focus on the basics... and create a proper foundation... Because the way the subtle body interacts with the human body is dangerous. No wonder eastern practices need decades worth of training and why they need a master to oversee a student so they don't learn things in the wrong way... The human mind body complex is truly amazing. Especially when your "internal view" skill awakens. So many levels layers and pathways.

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I wonder where will that name lead you.