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> Was there any improvement after the raising up of the sword ritual?
No, the octopus still seems to be around too, at least it showed to me that he was the girl with twin-tails that I've been seeing since around the time the Anathema showed up.
> Does he interrupt all the time?
If not in trance or silecing my mind and not paying attention to visuals then he does, right now I'm focused on typing this so I don't hear him, but I'm doing something like just eating/walking or taking a shower I start to hear him again. And my clairaudience is bad, so I'm putting off improving it while he's here, I worry that he'll bother me all the time if I get good at that.
Is it really ok for him to do all this, even if I don't want to become the local Lucifuge? Is it possible to break some kind of agreement between me and Anathema or Lucifuge that I'm not aware of? Sometimes I feel like this thing will never go away and that feeling sucks.
> At least you recognize your limits. I didn't. I went beyond always because I loved the feeling. Temperance is important.
Do you feel like you lack in the yin area?
> Then wait. Always ask yourself how you feel about your actions. If you are not ready it's always better to wait.
Yeah, its just that I like to know a lot before going through with my actions, and without communicating with spirits that sucks. Also the current government won't exactly wait for me to "git gud".
> Learning later in life that every dumb event in my past had a reason was weird.
Yeah, I'm starting to notice that a lot.
> also am kinda curious about this if it's not big secret/too personal
> I wonder how much different was from mine.
BO knows much more about it than me, I don't mind if he shares what he knows, unless he thinks its a bad idea, I woulnd't have gotten it without him and his friends basically doing all the work for me anyway.