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> Is it really ok for him to do all this, even if I don't want to
No obv. And I don't know how to expalin to get control of that because I am also bad at "clairaudience". I figured out a way how to channel information directly into my brain. So I don't need to wait till my "ears" hear it but "get to the point" instantly. (You can skip a whole lot of useless conversation with this clairaudience is only needed when there is a word that is not found in your mind. I just need to pay "more attention" to hear it) Not to mention some concepts are hard to explain with words.
It's rare when I hear the voices coming from "outside" of my mind.
I had some weird "thoughtstorm" and couldn't sleep properly some days ago and someone said "psst".
When I get sounds when I don't "ask for it" that means I am letting my defenses down.
> Do you feel like you lack in the yin area?
Absolutely. This is why I am on this board. You and BO has such a proper and still completely different yin that it constantly gives me ideas. This is what happens when you have a shit mom that tells you how dumb and weak you are... Then as I grew up she told me she could never "control me" because I had too much willpower. My mother had a mother with a really powerful yang too. While my father had a strong yang too and his development got stunted because of my grandpa. And while the abuse they both got from their parents ruined them my mother tried to ruin me the same way her mother did it but couldn't do that to the full effect while my father tried to shield me from that... then he did the same thing... Dumb family dynamics. The end result was that I developed an extremely powerful yang in my teens that made me realize I can do anything that I got obsessed that I need knowledge and power or I will be oppressed by those who have "more" no matter what. It's weird when your family fears you and see you as their "only hope" at once. First you see things as impossible "Obstacle" then you "outgrow it" without realizing. When I gave "my all" to something I just didn't get stronger but everything that opposed me "got weaker". Beating someone because suddenly they had an illness doesn't even feel great. I mean yeah good that it was less effort but I prepared so much energy and I was expecting to use it to see my "full might"
Entities tried to recommend me some IRL women to "calm the fuck down" but because of my absolutely unstable yang I have a constant superiority and inferiority complex at once. You know you can do anything but you might break apart anytime. Now I have my Shakti and other forces and I am gaining my balance. But only from the spiritual. I have to learn that I can "trust" this world when it's not "under my control". My lesson is the opposite of yours.
It's that if you can trust others then others can trust you too kind of thing. It's a way to handle energies and let them materialize.
Not to mention I figured out if I complete my path I can find either the "perfect woman" more easily or "create one". So simple to "sculpt" the way the mind of others work you just need to get the "hang" of it.
But I realized I don't want to do that. Finding people who I enjoy for being themselves is better.
This is why I oppose the NWO bullshit. Slaves have no value. People who need slaves have even less value (and no am not talking about the galfed slave system. that is literally an employment contract. completely different from the historical definition of slaves)