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Maybe that's the issue then, reading some people is easy because they're known and the change from what they looked before is easy to see. If you don't make an impression enough to leave a strong imprint, it gets much harder to see anything relevant.

It feels like you have a huge white spot in your mind and you are just now starting to overcome it. Maybe it wasn't visible before because it took up the entire image. This is not virtue white but a kind of external force controlling you. I couldn't tell you do try and fight it at this point because it's too central in your mind. But try to become aware of external forces of a central and significant nature in your life and how to become independent of those.

The "trick" here is to become aware, to walk alongside it and then learn its motions, so that you can start influencing this force instead of being controlled by it.

> sigil

Try this. I hadn't meant to share this with a sigil because it's an automatic function on the NET, but it could help to direct your thinking to see outside of this "white spot".