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>>/3394/ > I was practicing my TK and as colors appeared around the object I could move it. Then it turned out I am "thinning the border between the veils" with that and because I got "Too good at it" I almost went insane. There are too many forces at play and you need to understand them and you need to let them understand (You). A lot of times, when I am in "the mindset" for TK, blue/green waves appear going along my vision and I also see faint white smoke/static that moves a bit, sometimes followed by an electrical feeling. My best guess is that the waves are simply products of a hypnagogic state. The white smoke is a bit more difficult, since it also rarely appears out of nowhere and hits me. When you mentioned reciprocal understanding, I immediately thought of the recent increase of empathy I have experienced during sessions that go very well. The increased empathy lets me feel what influences are at work on the object, which is the reason I identified my own vision as something that impairs because of the subconscious construct that limits the movement just by looking at it. I'm beginning to sort of question if this is the correct developmental path for me. TK is cool and definitely an experience that one can learn a lot from, but I severely struggle with advancing. Like mentioned earlier, I don't necessarily want more raw power, just 100% "consistency", like moving my arm. This is a patience problem, but for example when I work out cardio, in a month I can test improved performance. With TK (for me), it really feels like wandering around in a void that is as cold as it is empty. Every bit of resource on the topic is eventually useless as you sit down and train. Now it's much more enjoyable as I am always getting small results, but it's similar to learning to walk after being paralyzed for some time. Not great, even if you can say "yes, I can walk now". Maybe it would be smarter to use the time trying to refine my access to TK for meditation and really getting in complete control of my thoughts etc., but I have the reservation that this could mean a fallback in terms of actually doing TK. A lot of regular people I meet day to day are now beginning to use terms like manifestation or something along the lines of astral projection. I get a weird feeling from that.