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> along with many other horrors over the course of my life

It's wild I know it. Especially because sometimes these situations just "need" to awaken some energy formation. First I thought entities want me to go through these so they can "prove" that I am "in their hands". Then I realized more deeper layers and how they want me to "realize" that it is "in my hand" the whole time.
Feel your way and feel how you must walk it truly.