> just sound like an incomplete schizo babble.
Maybe a good start would be to go easier on the quotation marks. I'm sure people will understand even without them.
> so you don't collapse under sour "own weight"
Yes when I try to retain for longer I start feeling heavier, and it's not always a good thing. It can be distracting as if it's a gravity that tries to pull you into physical stuff and human society. It seems to pull you down. I think the problem is that it's just normal Qi energy, and not something like Gong or consciousness. You usually don't really need a lot of normal energy. I'd rather be more "awake" or have more gong while still being light without too much mass or gravity. I guess this is where you need to learn to propely use and transmute the energy for spiritual purposes but that's also not exactly easy. Sometimes the energy gets stuck or other problems arise.